Nike Human Race.

Ok i know it's over for a few days already but i was pretty lazy to blog about it. Well... i think the organizer is screwed up. people who didn't run the race got the finisher medal which is a hand band, i think that totally defeats the purpose of having the finisher medal. Well... i finished the 10km in 1Hours 02Mins and 25Seconds, a lot said it was a good timing for one's first 10km but i think i can do better. =X i shall do better for the next Nike Human Race next year. =X hahahahaa... and NO im not only going to join Nike Human Race la! of coz will join other races. =DD

i had pizza on sunday at work. Order Canadian Pizza which didn't really taste nice but well... filling bahh... =X had think crust hawaiian and canadian pizza. >.< not that nice la...
PEOPLE SHOULD GO AND TRY "AL FORNO" AT EAST COAST! THEIR PIZZA IS LIKE WONDERFULLY DELICIOUS!!!
heh.

ok i duno what to talk about. tssk tsk. take care people!

Best class ever since school started..!

Today's class was so damn awesome! GOD damn awesome in fact! It was CRS today! Critical Reasoning Skills!!! It's a English language module which is basically about making stands and opinions. I've have to write essays yes thats the boring part but apart from writing essays, 80% of the module is practically debating! AWESOME AWESOME!!! heh. i love it sia!!! hehee... The teacher is pretty nice and she told us that she's actually well versed in the political side of views... thus i was like awesome den she must know a lot of things which i am interested in.

Guess what?! She pin point me and the 3 girls beside me as a group and exampled what we're going to do during the end of the module so called "EXAM" and the topic was (Should homosexual marriage be allowed in Singapore?) i was like WTF? like that jiu talk about such topics and to an extent i do feel that the laughter that soon filled the room after that topic was talked about was very immature and silly. i mean like come on everyone in the room is at least 18 years old already and i bet all of you should be able to think properly enough to actually face this current situation in Singapore right?!?! i agree with the lecturer that the class was silly to actually laugh about the topic being raised. Heh. In fact i think im one of the only few guys in class that didn't laugh. tssk tsk, probably becoz im more open and i know lots of things. hahahaa!

Overall i think i am going to LOVE this module and yes im trying to buck up my scores for this semester coz my overal cumulative GPA is like 2.5 liao which i think is pathetic! i need at least 3.3 la!!! HARRY IS GOING TO BUCK UP HIS STUDYING!!! heh.

After school i went to Queensway shopping centre in search of the shorts i need for my run tml (Nike Human Race 2009 10KM) im so ecstatic! It is like my first race and i serious think i should be able to make it... HAHA!!! i am going to make it thats for sure! it's a limit of 2.5hrs la! who the **** cannot run/walk a 10KM in 2.5hrs!!! LOL. =X i shall go to sleep soon and get ready for the run. hehe...

i dun think that all you have is your family, coz it's obviously sometimes im really worried about you. i hope u dont think too much about everything and i hope things between us could get better. it doesn't matter if ur even reading this or not but still.... SPEEDY RECOVERY! =DD

Bonne nuit! =DD

I Wished.

Today had a scrumptious meal at my Uncle's place. His an Indian and the food his mom cooks are FABB BUU LOUS~! Everything was SPICY! Hot and SPICY! LOL. I think i put on a lot today but well... i skipped dinner, or say dinner was 100gms of Breakfast Ham? =X

Slacked at Uncle's house for a few house before i set myself off to Town to watch Julie&Julia or was it Julia&Julie... well, one of it. LOL. It really nice, the live of 2 entangles together even though they never got to met each other. I percieve it as FATE. It was pretty cool, looking at all the delicious looking stuff they were whipping up. >.< gahhh... *DROOLz...* heh~

After the movie it was obvious that only ONE thought came to mind and well... it's still in my head now. If only i wasn't watching it with a group of people. heh~ tssk. Take care and till den.

thanks.

even though i slept through half my 18th birthday and spend the other 1/2 of the other 1/2 working, reading "The Lost Symbol", watching anime. i enjoyed the last 3 hours of my birthday.
Thanks Denise, Yi Qiang and Hon Lun for surprising me at my shop. I mean seriously you guys surprised me! LIKE A LOT A LOT. =X i was really so happy to see you guys. =DDDDDDDD i enjoyed dinner and i love ya company. =D see you guys soon!!!


sleep early and soon you will be able to cook and swim. =D take care!!!

deep down below.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRY!
Thanks Xav for the wine. It is heavy and looks yummy, cant wait to pop it open and have a go at it. =x The shirt... it really glows in the dark!!! heh. thanks though it's not tigger. HAHA! and the calender was like awesome! Somewhat i think Tigger looks funny in the calender though.
Well anyway, thanks! =DD
WELL ANYWAYSSS! i think im falling sick. >.< sore throat, red eyes, giddy giddy and damn flu. Good nights people!



Thank you. You did surprise me and cheered me up a little, even if it was just 2 sentences. Thanks. *smiles* you gotta take care ya? =DD till den.

11.10.09 bad.

i cant believe my 18th bday celebration is like so... not a celebration? heh~ i give up on my 18th bday.

thanks for the very few people that made it today. Alex, Jun Hao and Carl... thanks for well ur presence i guess. And thanks Aloysius for the present even though i sort of scolded u for the whole day through SMS. Thanks Tim for accompanying me just now... Sorry if my presence at ur shop has caused any misunderstanding between u and ZH. i duno... i dun wan anything to happen, not even doubts.


i realised that my presence recently have only brought about bad things to people around me and to myself. And i really miss someone now and i duno how his doing. His not talking to me nor do i have the courage to talk to him anymore. Just really really concerned about u, i guess. Take care and sleep earlier k? =DD

a little relief.

It's a relief you talked to me, even though it's not much. But hope you would slowly forgive me. Glad the op was a success since u said ur doing fine. tc dude. =D

ima head to bed with a doggy in the house! A pomeranian in in DA HOUSE~ Apparently, my brother's girlfriend's dog was caught being at the chalet which wasn't allowed and thus was sent to my place until sunday! awwwwwwww... it's so freaking cute and it likes me! =DDD good night everyone. =D Gotta work tml!

I've done so much wrong.

i shall leave u to be alone for the time being. Speedy recovery for your op tml. 24th October after my Nike race. I'll try to contact u again? Hopefully by then, you would have forgiven me.

Today.

i didn't went home last night coz i didn't wan to think of things that would come by naturally when im at home.

i failed to convey myself properly to show that im trying my best to get over the fact that it's over.

When to Holland Village today, with Denise. LOL. Thanks Denise for being there for me like continuously for 3 days i mean like... you've got to mingle studying and sad emo Harry. im sorry that im giving you extra troubles to worry about. But honestly thanks for being there to drink with me and pat my back when i was vomiting PAINFULLY. Be with me for lunch thinking of somebody. Being with me was the whole thing that made me think of that person less. Seriously THANK you. =D

we had Swenson's today since i have vouchers and den Denise wanted to eat Frolick so she went to get herself some and i didn't want. im like broke! god damn broked! LOL. den we went to Tanglin Mall area to slack a bit till i work den we went back together we had dinner. den ya deh ya deh ya deh... LOL im lazy to blog. >.<


I really rushed down to Lakeside MRT today, and seeing that nobody was there waiting for me was sort of disappointing. I read through all your blog post vaguely, i mean it's the easiest way to get to know your past and all... i'll say it's pretty interesting and some moments that i think if i were u i wouldn't have gone through. SO MUCH FOR SAYING THAT MY COMING OUT TO FAMILY WAS A BIG HOOHAA. LOL. i think your as brave as you seem to be just that you dun have much of a self esteem? i duno i shall not make assumptions coz it makes "an ass out of you and me". LOL. TC ya? your Ops is like on thursday! TC dude.

bad things are going to happen.

i have a feeling, an instinct, an intuition.
i duno why but it just feels very very negative.
why couldn't i just be happy?
why is it so hard to find happiness?
why am i suffering so much?
Watch ugly Truth.
"Love is bullshit, you can never ever find true love"
after this sentence i secretly cried in the movie. HEY GOD DAMN! it's suppose to be a comedy LOVE story. went back home and drink. and i drunk very little but i guess i ate too much of the food and i vomit. it hurts a lot when u vomit. hurts so much more when ur vomitting and think of some1. >.< i duno what's happening i duno what's going to happen. I guess im just not strong enough... Recently i've been feeling that i have never been good enough for any1 that i fell in love for. Am i really that bad? i asked myself. i couldn't answer coz deep inside my thots i refuse to accept the fact that people i admire/love/like/care for just dun really like me at all? maybe they do ONCE out of rashlessness but den again... i think i fell too deep each time and it's hard to step right back up. but i guess thats just me and yes im very emotional. emotions had and have taken over my actions and sometimes i just cant act properly. My mind goes against my soul, goes against my body and just do what it think was best at that point of situation.

Overall, i think i suck. BIG TIME. not dicks not pussies. but SUCK at my life.
Yes i know there are people who cares for me... and many special thanks for Denise who came down to find me though she'd didn't sleep for like 24Hrs already. really glad and happy that she came down. but sometimes i really hope it was that special someone who came down and stay over at my place and talk with my family and eat mooncakes together. WHICH might be highly impossible.
i guess im thinking too much and the way things are going at this rate, it wouldn't be long before i turn into some fuckign shit who plays around just to get revenge. i duno but i think i've changed throughout this years going through deep shit and all. it feels like im really trying too hard. too hard for me to handle sometimes and somethings just keep on getting outta my control.

good nights people. i'm sleeping at 7:30am.

i really miss you. you've stopped sms-ing me and replying to my msges. it feels weird and empty. but i guess i just have to deal with it. maybe im falling too fast and everything is going too quickly. i THINK i know what your considering about. but i hope i really enjoy the time now while ur still around here. just a few bus stops away just a few steps away and just a few minutes away.