It has been exactly 2 months minus 5 days. Since we met. I still remember the first day we met. It feels peaceful and friendly, but now it's all just crap i guess. Seems that there were "anything special between us" as quoted.
I know im dumb and retarded. My friends all think your an ass, I think im the ass. >.< being unable to let go after 2 months is kinda ridiculous when nothing have been official anyway. I always and am going to believe everything u said was true when we were still "friends"? i duno what we were but it seems that we were nothing to you.
I hope you enjoy ur last few days in SG. It seems it'll be better off without me. I don't need apologies nor explanations. Somewhat it feels like you wanna sever all ties with me. So be it. But just to let you know if ur ever reading this. I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU. =\
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
happenings happened.
I've spent a lot already!!!
I've gotten a new Tigger for myself. (Tigger, the 13th) Hehee...
I've gotten chocolate cookies.
I've gotten liquor chocolates.
I've gotten Winne the pooh bear Christmas cards! (THE EMPHASIZE IS THE TIGGERS!)
I've gotten self made Invitation cards for the rest of my events.
And those cost me roughly 150bucks already!!! GAHHH!!! >.<>.< BUT it's Christmas! The joy of sharing and giving is setting inside me much earlier den anybody else! Maybe because the shop im working at has already put up Christmas decorations stuffs for sales like 2 months before Christmas actually arrives..? I still got to get A lot a lot of items for all my friends for Christmass!!! GAWWWDDD! LoL. That means i'll have to work harder to pay off the things im getting for everyone else and... MYSELF! I've decided to get myself a...
BURBERRY CLASSIC CHECKERED LONG WALLET FOR MEN!!! =DDDD
lalala... Im so EXCITED to this coming Christmas and my event in January! A post New Year celebration! Lalalaa...
Oh oh OHH!! i just remembered!
My cousin and I have decide to come up with a FREE HUGGs event on 23rd December 2009 for pre christmas share-the-joy mood. Looking for people to join. Might have to dress up for the theme "Christmas". =DD i MIGHT be able to get free accessories and costumes if needed.
Please contact me @ 94231658 if your interested!
I've gotten a new Tigger for myself. (Tigger, the 13th) Hehee...
I've gotten chocolate cookies.
I've gotten liquor chocolates.
I've gotten Winne the pooh bear Christmas cards! (THE EMPHASIZE IS THE TIGGERS!)
I've gotten self made Invitation cards for the rest of my events.
And those cost me roughly 150bucks already!!! GAHHH!!! >.<>.< BUT it's Christmas! The joy of sharing and giving is setting inside me much earlier den anybody else! Maybe because the shop im working at has already put up Christmas decorations stuffs for sales like 2 months before Christmas actually arrives..? I still got to get A lot a lot of items for all my friends for Christmass!!! GAWWWDDD! LoL. That means i'll have to work harder to pay off the things im getting for everyone else and... MYSELF! I've decided to get myself a...
BURBERRY CLASSIC CHECKERED LONG WALLET FOR MEN!!! =DDDD
lalala... Im so EXCITED to this coming Christmas and my event in January! A post New Year celebration! Lalalaa...
Oh oh OHH!! i just remembered!
My cousin and I have decide to come up with a FREE HUGGs event on 23rd December 2009 for pre christmas share-the-joy mood. Looking for people to join. Might have to dress up for the theme "Christmas". =DD i MIGHT be able to get free accessories and costumes if needed.
Please contact me @ 94231658 if your interested!
Monday, November 9, 2009
Topic: Homosexuality marriage be allowed in Singapore.
That was the question posted to me and my friends on the first day of Critical Reasoning Skills.
It was pretty disturbing to know that practically my whole class was laughing head over heels when the topic was bought up by our Module Lecturer for "Critical Reasoning Skills".
Ok, I was exaggerating but it's true they laughed until our lecture stopped them telling them in a very stern face "Can you people be less childish and face such problems already" or well... something along that line. Is homosexuality a funny topic? Or is it that they have not mature enough to deal with the matters of current affairs in Singapore? I believe in the latter.
The numbers of homosexuals are on the rise for these recent years in Singapore and the fact remains that their presence cannot be ignored by Singapore Government anymore. The debate of "Amendments to be made to the Penal Code 377A" was strongly pushed down with the reason of that Singapore's majority population are not ready to face the consequences of allowing homosexual marriage. As quoted from Mr Lee Kuan Yew, Minister Mentor of Singapore's Government (PAP) "...people to live their own lives so long as they don't impinge on other people."
But how do people (Homosexuals) live their own lives without being themselves, such that their actions do not impinge on others?? It's like asking a monkey not to climb trees and walk on two legs and talking properly like how humans are doing. As it seems demoralising to know that still there are people in my generations, basically the teens, being so close-minded and unknowing about the society out there.
Yes, Religious and tradition thinking have played a major part in what implies the Right and the Wrong in our current society. Yet again, we can't let religion and tradition take control over what our conscience tells us. Tradition, It have been passed down from generations to generations about the "bad" of being homosexual and rumours that being homosexual give you a higher chance of contracting STDs and HIVs which is so not true! Being homosexual doesn't mean you get to have a higher chance of getting rotten dicks/pussies and rotting patchy itchy skins around your genitals.
Statistics shown by the Singapore Ministry Of Health shows that in Year 2008,
Heterosexual-248
Homosexual-151
Bisexual- 34
Intravenous drug use- 20
Blood Transfusion- 0
Renal Transplant overseas- 0
Perinatal (mother to child)- 0
Uncertain- 3
TOTAL- 456.
This is the statistics for over the range of year 1985-2001,
Heterosexual- 1160
Homosexual- 191
Bisexual- 146
Intravenous drug use- 32
Blood Transfusion- 3
Renal Transplant overseas- 5
Perinatal (mother to child)- 15
Uncertain- 47
TOTAL- 1599
Yes, I know that the amount of HIVs for homosexuals are raising as years have gone by. But the amount of homosexuals coming out of their own closet has also risen (as society is becoming less and less "traditional" in some ways) and it can be compared to the amount of homosexuals that were closeted at the past traditional society.
Yet another controversial topic is the generalisation of being Homosexuals. People tend to think that being gay means your sissy and whiny like a girl or vice versa; a lesbian being very "manly" like a straight man. People in the general population (straights) only see things on one side of the window and never ever step out of their comfort zone in their own house with the Air-con blowing chillingly down to their spine and yet they cover a blanket over themselves while in bed. Not knowing how hot and difficult it is to live a life as how we can only do in the hot climate and extreme weathers outside the comfort of the house. Rain or Shine, homosexuals still have to carry on with their everyday routine; Sleep, Eat, Work, Play, Family and Friends.
You can say that homosexuals also see things only from outside of the house and not see the dramatic scenes in the bedroom where straight couples quarrel and all. But as most homosexuals are closet, THEY ARE AWARE of the things going in and on in the house even though they are standing outside the house. It's like they are everywhere and you just don't know about it!
In my opinion, current Singapore majority population being so stuck up in the head or well living in the well for so long. It’s about time to move on to the new millennium whereby society shows mutual respect to one another ir-regardless of their sexualities. We are always on the news for being one of the countries to be advancing in technology and our effort in dealing with the current dangerous effects of Global Warming. But are we advancing in terms of social sciences and human rights among the homosexuals?
As quoted from our very own Singapore Pledge;
“We, the citizens of Singapore
pledge ourselves as one united people,
regardless of race, language or religion,
to build a democratic society,
based on justice and equality,
so as to achieve happiness, prosperity and
progress for our nation.”
Are we really one united people?
Or are we people trying to unit as one.
Are we really building a democratic society whereby its focus is on justice and EQUALITY?
Or are we building it with the standards of the majority that seems right which mean equality is not to all.
Are the homosexuals achieving “...happiness, prosperity and progress...”?
I’m sure they are unhappy to be unable to do what they want in public; not being able to express themselves the way they truly behave.
Where have all the equal human rights go?
Are homosexuals not human?
Do they not eat, sleep, work, play and enjoy time with their families and friends? I’m 100% sure that they do.
Think about it.
It was pretty disturbing to know that practically my whole class was laughing head over heels when the topic was bought up by our Module Lecturer for "Critical Reasoning Skills".
Ok, I was exaggerating but it's true they laughed until our lecture stopped them telling them in a very stern face "Can you people be less childish and face such problems already" or well... something along that line. Is homosexuality a funny topic? Or is it that they have not mature enough to deal with the matters of current affairs in Singapore? I believe in the latter.
The numbers of homosexuals are on the rise for these recent years in Singapore and the fact remains that their presence cannot be ignored by Singapore Government anymore. The debate of "Amendments to be made to the Penal Code 377A" was strongly pushed down with the reason of that Singapore's majority population are not ready to face the consequences of allowing homosexual marriage. As quoted from Mr Lee Kuan Yew, Minister Mentor of Singapore's Government (PAP) "...people to live their own lives so long as they don't impinge on other people."
But how do people (Homosexuals) live their own lives without being themselves, such that their actions do not impinge on others?? It's like asking a monkey not to climb trees and walk on two legs and talking properly like how humans are doing. As it seems demoralising to know that still there are people in my generations, basically the teens, being so close-minded and unknowing about the society out there.
Yes, Religious and tradition thinking have played a major part in what implies the Right and the Wrong in our current society. Yet again, we can't let religion and tradition take control over what our conscience tells us. Tradition, It have been passed down from generations to generations about the "bad" of being homosexual and rumours that being homosexual give you a higher chance of contracting STDs and HIVs which is so not true! Being homosexual doesn't mean you get to have a higher chance of getting rotten dicks/pussies and rotting patchy itchy skins around your genitals.
Statistics shown by the Singapore Ministry Of Health shows that in Year 2008,
Heterosexual-248
Homosexual-151
Bisexual- 34
Intravenous drug use- 20
Blood Transfusion- 0
Renal Transplant overseas- 0
Perinatal (mother to child)- 0
Uncertain- 3
TOTAL- 456.
This is the statistics for over the range of year 1985-2001,
Heterosexual- 1160
Homosexual- 191
Bisexual- 146
Intravenous drug use- 32
Blood Transfusion- 3
Renal Transplant overseas- 5
Perinatal (mother to child)- 15
Uncertain- 47
TOTAL- 1599
Yes, I know that the amount of HIVs for homosexuals are raising as years have gone by. But the amount of homosexuals coming out of their own closet has also risen (as society is becoming less and less "traditional" in some ways) and it can be compared to the amount of homosexuals that were closeted at the past traditional society.
Yet another controversial topic is the generalisation of being Homosexuals. People tend to think that being gay means your sissy and whiny like a girl or vice versa; a lesbian being very "manly" like a straight man. People in the general population (straights) only see things on one side of the window and never ever step out of their comfort zone in their own house with the Air-con blowing chillingly down to their spine and yet they cover a blanket over themselves while in bed. Not knowing how hot and difficult it is to live a life as how we can only do in the hot climate and extreme weathers outside the comfort of the house. Rain or Shine, homosexuals still have to carry on with their everyday routine; Sleep, Eat, Work, Play, Family and Friends.
You can say that homosexuals also see things only from outside of the house and not see the dramatic scenes in the bedroom where straight couples quarrel and all. But as most homosexuals are closet, THEY ARE AWARE of the things going in and on in the house even though they are standing outside the house. It's like they are everywhere and you just don't know about it!
In my opinion, current Singapore majority population being so stuck up in the head or well living in the well for so long. It’s about time to move on to the new millennium whereby society shows mutual respect to one another ir-regardless of their sexualities. We are always on the news for being one of the countries to be advancing in technology and our effort in dealing with the current dangerous effects of Global Warming. But are we advancing in terms of social sciences and human rights among the homosexuals?
As quoted from our very own Singapore Pledge;
“We, the citizens of Singapore
pledge ourselves as one united people,
regardless of race, language or religion,
to build a democratic society,
based on justice and equality,
so as to achieve happiness, prosperity and
progress for our nation.”
Are we really one united people?
Or are we people trying to unit as one.
Are we really building a democratic society whereby its focus is on justice and EQUALITY?
Or are we building it with the standards of the majority that seems right which mean equality is not to all.
Are the homosexuals achieving “...happiness, prosperity and progress...”?
I’m sure they are unhappy to be unable to do what they want in public; not being able to express themselves the way they truly behave.
Where have all the equal human rights go?
Are homosexuals not human?
Do they not eat, sleep, work, play and enjoy time with their families and friends? I’m 100% sure that they do.
Think about it.
=\
I would apologize sincerely by means of monetary values IF i have the ability spend so carefree-ly. =\
*sigh*
ya i still cant get over it even though everyone, yes i meant EVERYONE is pouring cold water at me. LOL.
I've to remind myself... detachmen detachment detachment... But it seems that "Boredom" is really getting well with me. Seems like his nagging and me all day long and that couldn't have a minute in noises without "Boredom".
GAH! HOW DO YOU STOP THE GROWTH OF "Boredom"?!?!
IF only i have boredom retardant pills as quoted from some1. LOL. >.<
*sigh*
ya i still cant get over it even though everyone, yes i meant EVERYONE is pouring cold water at me. LOL.
I've to remind myself... detachmen detachment detachment... But it seems that "Boredom" is really getting well with me. Seems like his nagging and me all day long and that couldn't have a minute in noises without "Boredom".
GAH! HOW DO YOU STOP THE GROWTH OF "Boredom"?!?!
IF only i have boredom retardant pills as quoted from some1. LOL. >.<
Sunday, November 8, 2009
As of 7 November 2009.
I have THIRTEEN, i repeat!
I HAVE THIRTEEN TIGGERS!
=D i Love my 2nd Family. HEHE. =X
I HAVE THIRTEEN TIGGERS!
=D i Love my 2nd Family. HEHE. =X
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Detachment Day 6-11-09
Just for the Record, I've deleted 400 people from my Facebook and I don't know why but the hi-bye 'friends' and acquaintances are like adding me back. I don't see the point of adding them back already tssk tsk.
Another thing is i stopped widening my Social circle. =D i shall focus on friends that i have and seriously do things to make myself more happy.
And i deleted roughly 50 people from my MSN contact list!
AND i deleted roughly 50 people from my HP contact list too!!!
Isn't it awesome?! LOL. =X
i duno why but i do feel this positive feeling inside me that im getting rid of such people in my life that doesn't not much impact to you. HAHA! Well anyway! Here's one thing i wan someone to know, even though im not in ur MSN contacts nor FB friend list anymore... i still care for u bahh. Even if u hate me as much as i want to try to resolve things between us... =D
NEVERTHELESS i wont forget you. Three years from now i hope we can finally be friends.
Anyway! i ran about 7km today! =D im so happy. wait lemme check!
(after 10 mins at www.mapmyrun.com)
i ran really 7km! it was 6.99KM that i mapped from www.mapmyrun.com -credits of knowing this website to Denise. =DD i feel good~
I believe i can fly~
I believe i can touch the skies~
Lalalalaaa... =x
Good nights people! =D
Another thing is i stopped widening my Social circle. =D i shall focus on friends that i have and seriously do things to make myself more happy.
And i deleted roughly 50 people from my MSN contact list!
AND i deleted roughly 50 people from my HP contact list too!!!
Isn't it awesome?! LOL. =X
i duno why but i do feel this positive feeling inside me that im getting rid of such people in my life that doesn't not much impact to you. HAHA! Well anyway! Here's one thing i wan someone to know, even though im not in ur MSN contacts nor FB friend list anymore... i still care for u bahh. Even if u hate me as much as i want to try to resolve things between us... =D
NEVERTHELESS i wont forget you. Three years from now i hope we can finally be friends.
Anyway! i ran about 7km today! =D im so happy. wait lemme check!
(after 10 mins at www.mapmyrun.com)
i ran really 7km! it was 6.99KM that i mapped from www.mapmyrun.com -credits of knowing this website to Denise. =DD i feel good~
I believe i can fly~
I believe i can touch the skies~
Lalalalaaa... =x
Good nights people! =D
Thursday, November 5, 2009
I woke up this morning feeling kinda blue,
I was late for class but i didn't hurry instead i slowly stumble outta bed.
The first thought that came to my mind was "Why aren't u beside me".
I feel that I've been a burden to everyone around me.
My close friends are probably irritated by my MULTIPLE 'attempts' which have only led to failure and emotional downhills. I personally wish that i can live my life alone.
Ytd, Mr Discreet spoke with me. Telling me his story and all... I wish it could have been that much easier in finding my 'Someone Special". It's been awhile that i put myself on the front line. I don't understand the fact that i am always putting others infront of me even though sometimes i feel as if the whole world if falling down down me and there are already a lot of times that i cannot continue.
Day by day, One by one.
My heart became colder and colder, my life became more and more meaningless.
Maybe it's seriously time for me to stop contacting everyone else. Apart from people i think that will have a positive impact on my life.
I've made a choice. I will stop and wait. I shall not do anything in rush. I shall not do anything wronog. AND i shall wait for my "Someone Special".
I was late for class but i didn't hurry instead i slowly stumble outta bed.
The first thought that came to my mind was "Why aren't u beside me".
I feel that I've been a burden to everyone around me.
My close friends are probably irritated by my MULTIPLE 'attempts' which have only led to failure and emotional downhills. I personally wish that i can live my life alone.
Ytd, Mr Discreet spoke with me. Telling me his story and all... I wish it could have been that much easier in finding my 'Someone Special". It's been awhile that i put myself on the front line. I don't understand the fact that i am always putting others infront of me even though sometimes i feel as if the whole world if falling down down me and there are already a lot of times that i cannot continue.
Day by day, One by one.
My heart became colder and colder, my life became more and more meaningless.
Maybe it's seriously time for me to stop contacting everyone else. Apart from people i think that will have a positive impact on my life.
I've made a choice. I will stop and wait. I shall not do anything in rush. I shall not do anything wronog. AND i shall wait for my "Someone Special".
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Read. =\
I never meant to start a war.
This is the first thing that came to my mind.
All I wanted was understanding, probably a little more which i think will be asking too much for.
I was silly, yes I know. I was reluctant to let go.
All I did was for concern, not for some big attention.
No you don't know what I'm thinking, nor would you bother so.
All I wanted was for you to know, I'll be there when you needed someone close.
One thing left unknown, I can't tell if my feelings faded off.
I tell myself not to let go cause I believed in everything you once told.
But then, the present you seems to put me down again again and so forth.
Though I'm keeping my options open,
You still walk past my mind to and fro.
There will be a time you have to leave,
I'm not sure how I'll react then.
For the past, I pray as it will be Forever-Memories.
For now, I pray for your recovery.
For then, I pray for your success.
For the future far ahead, I pray you remember me being here and there and THEN for you.
Yours Sincerely,
Gui Hui Yin. Harry.
This is the first thing that came to my mind.
All I wanted was understanding, probably a little more which i think will be asking too much for.
I was silly, yes I know. I was reluctant to let go.
All I did was for concern, not for some big attention.
No you don't know what I'm thinking, nor would you bother so.
All I wanted was for you to know, I'll be there when you needed someone close.
One thing left unknown, I can't tell if my feelings faded off.
I tell myself not to let go cause I believed in everything you once told.
But then, the present you seems to put me down again again and so forth.
Though I'm keeping my options open,
You still walk past my mind to and fro.
There will be a time you have to leave,
I'm not sure how I'll react then.
For the past, I pray as it will be Forever-Memories.
For now, I pray for your recovery.
For then, I pray for your success.
For the future far ahead, I pray you remember me being here and there and THEN for you.
Yours Sincerely,
Gui Hui Yin. Harry.
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