Friends. or not?

Believe it or not...
I've finished nearly the Second year in Singapore Poly...
meaning I've been eating in school alone for roughly 1 year since my bestie graduated. =\
I even have a schedule for my lonely lunch breaks!
Monday Break = Sleep at my comfy corner @ Library L5.
Tuesday Break = Use computer and stare at screen. (nothing to do either)
Wednesday = End school at 12. SHOPPING! seems like the only things that cheers me up now.
Thursday Break = Sleep/computer
Friday = End school at 12. SHOPPING!

It's kinda sad. Im starting to loathe school. It just seems to me that my SELF-PROCLAIMED friends are being more and more drifted away... It hurts to know the effort i put in just goes down the drain. So now, Im only your friend either when... you need help from me, you need company from me coz everyone else is unavailable... blah blah blah goes on the list of excuses and all...

To me, Close friends still feel a little like Close friends.
Normal friends = accquaintances now.
Accquaintances = strangers now.

I see no point in saying Hi-Bye and just wave my hands... If you ever did see me on the streets and i walked past you and you know i noticed you but didn't bother. This post is for you people. I cant be bothered to wave my hands just to make u smile. In fact, i dont even wanna smile at you.

I once said.
"I smiled at you, not because I'm trying to be friendly.
Deep inside, I have the very urge to stab you with a knife so sharp.
You wont feel a thing."

They always say they care and they bother, they are still there when they are well... PHYSICALLY never here. If with that said, WHY DO I EVEN NEED YOU TO BE SPRITUALLY HERE? If that's the case millions and millions care and bother about me they are JUST NOT HERE. There's no point in just talking crap and saying shit! Actions seriously mean more den words.

Firstly, dont say what you dont mean!
Secondly, if you've already said what you dont mean! At least have the guts to admit that!
Thirdly, i jolly well dont need your presence AT ALL!
VANISH WITHIN MY SIGHT!
DISAPPEAR INTO THIN AIR!
DISINTERGRATE INTO NOTHING MORE DEN HYDROGEN!

Face it! Whoever you are, your just as superficial as anyone you've pointed out.

All that matters to me now is me myself and I.
I need money to substain the living im going for.
I need to work.
I need to earn.
A month worth of SGD 3000 is NOT ENOUGH!
A month worth of SGD 5000 is bearly ENOUGH!
A month worth of SGD 8000 for me myself and I.
LOL. Yes, I'm being very very materalistic.
SO WHAT?
Gucci don't disappoint me!
Burberry ain't going to not come along with me for dinners i organise!
MOST OF ALL, They never leave you. Well... not that you lose you lahh...

If I were ever given a choice to choose.
YOU FREAKING IDIOTS
VS.
Luxury Fashion Brands

The answers is obvious.
I believe i deserve more for what I've given.
It's time to reap a little of what I've sow.
Sometimes, I'm jealous you treat others better when honestly, I treat you like a I cant deserve any better.
I was and am still giving what i can.
But It seems to me... I'm compared as nothing much to the others u cherish more.
Maybe I am really not good enough.
Maybe I am not your people's ideal kind of friend.
I ain't rich.
I ain't hot.
I ain't got all the contacts.
I ain't got talents.
I ain't got anything much that i can be proud of in fact.

But I'm Harry. I believe I still deserve a little credit for being Harry.
The playful idiotic emotional crazy wild bitchy slutty materialistic Harry i am.

With all that I've mentioned.
I shall go for my class and I shall try my best for exams.
Labels ain't going to disappoint me.
OH WAIT! If it's MIC den maybe it would be disappointing so ya... not MIC products. LOL.
Australia, Italy, France, Europe, USA, Canada, Spain, Germany the list goes on. =P

Next post shall be CNY stuff I've bought!!!
Before that i got to get the last 2 things done.
Bag and Hair. =D
Till den Blog reader(s).

either this or that. =x

Now that it's confirmed with Louis Vuitton.
The decision drops down to 2 options.
Definitely not the so common and fakeys- Damier or Monogram
It'll be meaningless to get something everyone has. =DD

1st option-
Louis Vuitton Taiga Multiple Wallet. =D

2nd option-
Louis Vuitton Taiga Billfold with 6 credit slots. =D


PLEASE VOTE. =DDDDDDDDDD

SIGH.

It sucks when so many mishappening happens all in 2 days.
By the way today's Tuesday 04.01.10.
Yesterday, my quarrelled with practically my whole family. Its like they are all against me? I admit its my wrong for raising my voice but still the whole point was that the jeans, i dont mind paying 17bucks to take it to the alteration shop at JP and the uncle could do a good job turning it into a nice fitting Slim-Fit jeans for me! Cause apparently, my mom said her friend could do it for free though it's just turning it into a thinner Regular-Fit shorter jeans... But my mom told me ytd when i asked for the jeans that her friend havent return her and she paid her friend 20bucks to do it. Den i was like... i thought u said it was for free? if u were to give her 20bucks u might as well give me 17 and i could bring it to JP and have that uncle do it for me nicely and all! ARGHZ... den the whole thing just flare with my father scolding me for getting so many Tiggers and my brother scolding me for nothing. tssk tsk. ARGHz... some reasons why i dont like to be at home coz it seems that im the centre of "ATTRACTION" more like the centre of "CRAP"...
=.=

Den today! The first very very bad day of 2010 for me, i believe.
Firstly, i scored relatively disappointing for my PPM which i thot i could at least get a 65... tssk tsk. shall not reveal how much i got. but ya... =(
Den i went to town to get the Attachment form which i MUST give to the lecturer tomorrow to vet to see if i can work @ Rustic Living. =D
Den i went back to school for class. (P.S. my break was 2 hours i didn't skip class hor)
den the lecture was kinda boring coz it was teaching P=VI and V1/V2=T1/T2
which is Transformer for those who duno. well, i guess the chim part has yet to come.
after school, I met with my friend to collect my long deserved Burberry wallet.
AND THEN THE MORE DISAPPOINTING THING HAPPENED.
The wallet wasn't the right one. It was the Classic Check for Men's Long wallet. The one my friend help me got was Black Check for Men's Long wallet WHICH IS NOT NICE AT ALL!!! =( sigh* so i asked to have it returned and I want the one that i wanted from the start.
The Classic Checked Men's Wallet (PREFERABLY THE NEW COLLECTION ONE)
Sigh* den another thing was that my result for EMD was horrifying too! gosH what's with Tuesday today!?!?!?
Well practically everything kinda sucked. Wanted to open an eSaver account at Standard Chart only to find that I cant open it with a proper IC which i believe i left at home, though i duno where i left it. =\
den i went window shopping around for accessories to match my coming CNY clothings. WHICH i have yet bought. HAHA. Apart from CALVIN KLEIN UNDIES~~~

SIGH*
please better days come to me! =\
Good nights people.